Hibernation / Convalescence
As my Christmas holiday luck would have it, I put my back out 2 weeks before Christmas. Many things were planned, many things didn’t happen, but that’s ok. The internet saved the day for gifts not yet gotten and the other half looked after anything that required a mobile human. The little one’s creche lent a hand too by taking him extra days and a friend looked after him during my physio sessions. All this meant I could remain as horizontal as often as possible expediting recover. We really hit the jackpot of lovely folk about us.
Four weeks later, I feel totally healed. Thank goodness for physio and heaps of rest. I took my 1st big walk last week (4k woo!!) and drove again for the first time since the start of December. It was fabulous.
While I’m usually super grumpy at being ill/unable to move about as usual, I settled into hibernation/convalescence. It did my body and mind good. I was apprehensive about how I would feel this Christmas. It was a big anniversary for news that changed the course of my life, and of a loss that I feel acutely to this day. Twenty years ago my aunt was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer and given 6 months to live, she made it 4 months. She was more of a mother to me than my biological one. After becoming a mother, I miss her more than ever now.
Normally, I would keep myself busy so as not to feel or think too much but I didn’t have much of a choice this year. And you know what? It was not as bad as I thought. This gives me hope for next year and a plan (I do so like a good plan.). So I shall continue to take it easy when feeling a little bit off and hug my guys just that little bit tighter. Basically follow the advice that I’d given a friend who recently lost a parent; take it easy & be kind to yourself. Grieving is hard, no matter how far away in time that loss took place. The heart isn’t a very good time keeper, some days it feels as if the loss only happened yesterday.
So here’s to a kinder new year filled with love & time with those we love.